bee stung. (Des Moines)
I saw the beginning of NY Vixen’s post and felt compelled to blog it up also. I purposely didn’t read her blog to make sure my ideas were my own, but if I repeat any of her sentiments, well, that is why we are friends. We GET things about one another. With that said, it will probably be completely different, just like our taste in men (HALLELUJAH!).
I have to say that I feel more confused right now than (possibly) ever before. A year out of a marriage, a recent heartache and living in a city I don’t fit into has made my typically strong root structure shrivel. The man that told me I needed to be dating other people, which set this whole blogging shebang in motion, is not in love with me and is clear he won’t fall in love with me when there are 1000 miles between us. That is his will. He is right in that I have to focus on setting up shop in DM. I just don’t want to, like a 6 year old in the toy store, stomping my feet, I don’t want to. I don’t see my place here, don’t see how I fit and holding onto him is like blowing kisses into smoky air. The sentiment is sweet, but the intended destination is obscured. Read the rest of this entry »
